Turning 30

A long time ago I was a child.
But a moment ago I forgot I was an adult.
When I dream, I am 8 years old having adventures with my cousins.
When I am awake, I am 29 years old sitting in meetings, drinking my coffee and having small talk with grown ups.
I wonder if buying a house, getting married and birthing a child will make me feel grown up.
As a kid, I pictured living on a tv set with bright lights and laughing tracks to follow my every joke.
I’ve always been in a rush to move time forward.
The editor in me says, “transition, edit, cut, lets move this along.”
But just when life feels slow, it moves fast in to the past.
When I drive towards the sunset, I am reminded there is so much to life I still don’t know.
I traveled the world but yet there is still so much to see.
The questions of, “what if” & “if only’s” are fading away.
My thoughts about life are becoming, “Thank goodness.”
I’m leaving my 20’s confident
and yet entering 30 very nervous.
Maybe its time I wear shoulder pads, women suits and high heels.
It seems, the hardest part is deleting my child like thoughts about being a grown up.
I may enter the future with a blank canvas, but that just means God has a new painting to create.

Author: Moniemuse

Video Editor & Media Department Director

10 thoughts on “Turning 30”

  1. Very eloquently put, with a great outlook. When I was 20 I wished I was 16, when I was 25 I wished I was 20, when I am 40 I will wish I was 30. Maybe its best to just forget the numbers…

  2. That was artfully expressed and poetically intriguing. I’m going to be 39 next month and am faced with the “what should I have accomplished by now” thoughts. Yet, I remember the 29 to 30 feeling of adulthood very well. For me, and for most guys I hear, there’s a major shift in our perceptual view in our early 30s where we focus more on accomplishment and family than on self-gratification (video games, clubs, etc.) and it’s probable women feel that shift a few years sooner (whatever that may be). The next ten years are going to fly by, instead of wanting time to speed up you will want it to slow down. It’ll be Christmas, Summer, Christmas, Sunmer. Plan your time well, force a pause into your days as often as you can to find a moment of awareness, and take lots of pictures to “catch up” with yourself and your loved ones at some point in the near future. And, lastly, keep a journal (diary), it’ll help you clarify your thoughts, plans, and adversities, as well as show you how you are progressing. Plus, it’ll show you how God has answered prayers in your life. Happy soon to be 30th.
    Cheers!
    Jack

    1. Thanks for taking the time to comment jack, this is great advice. I haven’t journaled since I was in jr high, but I think I’ll pick it up again.

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