The director’s cut is when the editor creates a specialized version that represent the director’s own approved edit. This sometimes means having more scenes with more information about the characters and can ultimately have a different ending.
The past few weeks I’ve been living the Director’s cut. Which isn’t bad, just not what I pictured. I prefer fast transitions and getting to the point, but it seems the Director is fond of subtle transformations that hold significant lessons. I am noticing these unexpected scenes are indeed adding beauty to my story. There are times when I receive random snippets and have no idea how they will fit with each other. Its up to me to do something with each component and prepare for what the Director gives me next. I can expect to make a few mistakes along the way, but all I can really do is learn from them. Sometimes as an editor, what may have been a mistake might be the very thing I was looking for. So Im allowing myself to take a few risk.
I can see the theme of faith, hope, and courage. The heart of my character is being challenged. I am learning a lot about overcoming fear and trust. Though I am tempted to question the director’s art, I trust Him. He knows what He’s doing and where He is taking the story. After all, He knows the end.
The amazing thing is He listens to me. I tell Him what I think about the story and the vision I see when I close my eyes. He takes all my ideas in to account. When I least expect it, He hands me something better than what I dreamt of. I say, “Wow, you got this from my idea?” and He answers, “It was our idea, we dreamt it together, this project is as much as yours as it is mine.”
I want the movie of my life to be God’s heart beat. Although I am eager to know what happens, I am telling myself to enjoy the journey and to keep on being a diligent worker- to be open, to learn, grown, create, dream, pursue, read, laugh, visit, travel, seek and love.
One of the last projects I worked on at The Rock was Pam’s story about her battle with Breast Cancer. There would be times when I would watch my cut to review it and be taken by her faith and courage. I was excited when I was told it would be played at the weekend services. That meant 13,000 people would also be encouraged by Pam’s bravery.
Thank you Pam for opening up your journey, I know it will help and encourage so many others.
The time is coming
and soon it will arrive
when my bags are packed
and i drive towards the sun rise.
To the airport I go
and kiss my parents good bye
to a land that if far and alive.
A place full of strangers and
get a city full of friends.
Though all the details are a blur
i know that the time has come for me
to let go of all my fears.
To take a risk
and to leave those who are dear.
But first, I must thank a friend who pushed me
in to this gear.
He believed when I told him my dream,
he said, “Monica, you can do anything.”
I shall breathe your fresh air
and see your trees grow yellow
by the end of this year.
“Be strong and courageous and fear not, seek Me first and I will give you the desires of your heart, believe in Me and I will give you rest, just remember to cast all your cares upon Me. I created you for such a time as this. You are the beauty of Esther, the defender of beauty.”
“Lord not my will, but Your will. Where you go I will go. You lead and I will follow. You speak and I will listen. You say to believe in the impossible and to leave the possible. It is time I “cast down my neat”. I take a step forward and walk on the water towards you by expressing my secret dream to the world, ‘To have enough money to live anywhere in the world’, and now that I do, I choose to be with you… in the impossible.”
I was invited to do camera at West Cost Catalyst Conference in the OC. Its a conference for church leaders.
When I checked in with the production team leader, he asked if I had ever worked with a DSLR. Little did he know, my best friend is my 7D. (I know I’m a nerd). He then handed me the 5D with the choice of three different L series lens. He also showed me the dolly tripod that I could use, the steady rig, and the shoulder mount. I was in heaven. I had unlimited SD cards and about twenty batteries.
I went to work right away. I discovered that I really like the 70-200mm lens. This may be the lens I decide to buy. I was able to stand far enough from people and still having depth to field. My production team leader said I had an all access pass to go anywhere I like. With that permission I was about to capture the shots having no limits.
The theme this year for the conference is Courage. While I was getting shots I was able to listen to the messages, it seemed as they were talking to me. One of my favorite parts was when I visited the chapel to get some footage of people praying. I was taken when I saw this wall with confessions to God on it. I stood there reading all of them. I got teary when I read some of the prayers..they were prayers that I’ve prayed before. There was one that read, “I don’t trust where you are taking me”, another “I’m to scared to take a risk cause I don’t know if You can fix if I fail.”
One nice surprise was the performance of John Mark Mcmillan. A friend gave me his music a while back and I totally became a fan. I love his lyrics and even his voice. While taking video I was able to take a few snap shots.
The Catalyst Conference was a pleasant surprise. I think it might just change my life. 🙂