Since I’ve been a stay home mom I’ve had extra time in between naps and taking care of the baby to go though my old footage that I’ve collected over time and start to edit them into videos. It’s something I always wanted to do, and I’m sure you have footage on your hard drive that “one day edit this.”
My one day has been now. Its strange to look at footage of me from 9 years ago. My insecurities scream off the camera, I remember feeling ugly because of my braces and my skin wasn’t photoshop clear. I was harsh to myself then and now a grown women I feel bad for her. I want to tell her “relax, things work out: your skin clears up, your braces come off and your smile is beautiful again.” I also remember at the time feeling like when I liked a boy he never really liked me back. Now I can see why, I wasn’t being myself, and I was being so uncomfortable in my own skin, it would make anyone want to stay away.
I also see the possibilities that were before me. I was careful with each direction I took. I always wanted to do the right thing and make the best decision possible. I was always afraid I was going to make the wrong decision, that sometimes I didn’t make one, which is making one: to do nothing. The risk I did take were thought out and careful. When it came to date someone I was always cautious, to the point the boy would give up and move on, which left only the ones who were serious.. or should I say the one who became the one. Future husband Gus.
We do the best we can when we are young, sometimes we make mistakes but I believe if we try to be deliberate with life, we’ll end up where we want to be.
I never took the time to edit this footage because I didn’t like how I came across, now I can see the story wasn’t about me but about an artist. After all, I traveled a few hundred miles to meet him, Leonard Knight.
You can watch my youtube episode about my journey to salvation mountain and also revisit the blog I wrote and photos I shared in 2010:
It’s not about how great something looks but about the life breathed in to it.
When I was new at editing videos my only concern was to make it look cool, but when I viewed it, I knew something was missing. I was trying to make all my videos look like everyone elses. I later learned what made my work different was my perspective. You may see the sunset, but I see you watching it.
Since joining Instagram, I realized this more. I want people who follow me to have an experience of seeing the world through my eyes. At first I had no idea how to use this platform. Those I asked for advise told me I was over thinking it. I saw so many people using it for different things, famous people seem to use it to remind their fans they are alive and still good-looking. But for my little world of 100 people who follow me, I decided I wanted them to see the beauty in the small details of life. To remember its small moments that make the big moments.
When creating something new, I ask myself these questions…
-How do I want people to feel when they view my work?
-What do I want them to think about?
There should be a message behind every creative thing you do. Even annoying advertisements know their point.
So no matter if you’re creating a video, taking a photo or writing, keep in mind how powerful your view of the world is. Because no one see things quite like you.
Our perspective effects the way we photographers shoot. Growing up Christian I always thought sexy was bad but becoming a woman myself God has shown me what the word really means. I’ve learnt that sexy can be about the way a girl carries herself, her beauty and purity. In photography, its all about what her eyes are saying.
My perspective and photography has developed since the last time I shoot Crystal back in 2010. I wanted to shoot her as a mature young lady rather than a girl.
One the drive to the mountains with Crystal I learned what she loves and her heart for life. The excitement she had for the future reminded me when I was her age. The world was full of possibilities.
I heard a poem on a podcast a month ago that has since stayed with me. I found it fascinating and powerful.
I’m the reality of your every day life. I am many name, many faces, many shapes, and forms. I come in every size and color. I am blamed for more failures than anything or anyone else. I am no respecter of person. I do not play favorites and I never choose sides. Within me are invisible seeds of greatness and immeasurable fields of frustration. What you chose to do with me will make you better or bitter. The people that don’t want me the most inevitably have the most of me. The great paradox is, that I will never go away. Yet I can show anyone a better way. Without me there will be zero chance of success. In fact, I am the driving force behind all achievement and progress. The better you get a dealing with me the better you, you will be. Its not a matter of if you will face me but when you will face me. And with that, let me make you a guarantee. I will be in your face everyday. I am the one thing in your life that has the potential to help you think bigger, be better and do the impossible in every area of your life. Unfortunately, until you met me everything is fine and like most people say “It is what it is.” Those people by the way do not know the power I have to make their potential a reality. The most important thing about me you need to know is that I am waiting everyday to be used by you, or in worst case scenario to be used against you. Who am I? I am your Problem. And in case no one ever told you, my last name is Solution.
In 2012, I’m not sure what’s going to happen and where I will call home. I know that I am doing what most have only dreamt of doing. I will start my journey to become a film editor. This poem has encouraged me and hope it helps you as well.
You can hear the complete podcast and series from The Abundant Life Church in England here.